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Year in Review 2009

I want to wish everyone a Happy New Year for the coming few days. Celebrate hard, but celebrate safe. As usual...here is my year in review post that I do every year around this point in time. I hope you enjoy.

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Top Survey = taken from masako back in 2007
Bottom = my usual, longer, year in review survey, taken from juiceboy back in 2006.

Previous Years:
2006
2007
2008

5 biggest flaws:
- I find me keeping feelings to myself, rather than talking with people I am comfortable with. I have too much pride in myself to talk with people about my problems.
- I spend money too easily. When I have money, I also find myself spending it more on friends rather than myself, or even saving it.
- I'm a procrastinator on many different levels.
- I don’t realize important things, until it’s often too late
- More often than not, I refuse to ask for help.

5 best qualities:
- I know what I’m passionate about, and what I want to do.
- I’m one of the most loyal friends a person could have.
- Besides my stubbornness, I’m very logical in my choices.
- I like to think I’m versatile in what I do.
- I have a lot of big dreams

Happiest moment:
- Traveling to Las Vegas & Boston this year.

Worst moment:
- Realizing that my school loans are due, and I still only have an hourly paying job, rather than a real career. Wondering how I’m going to pay for them.

Biggest achievements:
- Graduating SIU in May.

Biggest Failure:
- Not being able to find a career immediately after graduating.

Last Year's Resolution(s): (cliffs notes in brackets)
#1. Weight << lose lbs. in general>>
#2. Debt. << take out a sizeable chunk >>
#3. Plans << Graduate. And have something set after Graduating>>

Accomplished or Not?:
#1. No. I didn’t gain any weight this year, but I didn’t lose any lbs either. I think that the main problem that I had with this resolution was that I didn’t set any plans of action for it to happen. It was just kind of something that I said I wanted to do. I do save the same resolution for this year, but the one main difference is that I actually have plans set out for me. Hopefully I’ll have the willpower to follow them.
#2. Not really. I took a bit out of it, but not as much as I was hoping.
#3. Yes / No. I did graduate, but I don’t have anything career-wise.



2010 New Year's Resolutions:
#1. Weight. I want to lose weight this year, mainly for my health and self-esteem. Rather than set a specific goal, I will be happy as long as I’m able to drop a reasonable amount of pounds, and hopefully a few pants sizes. I have plans set up for weight loss, and I’m hoping to try my hardest to stick to them. First, I’m going to cut out soda drinking at home….unless it’s for special occasions (Birthdays, holidays, etc), and the same goes for going out to eat for dinner. I need to drink more water and juices, and cut out all that sugar. I also want to add some sort of workout plan, but I haven’t gotten as far as making one out yet. Right now, the more important thing is to cut out the pop.
#2. Debt. I want to take a chunk out of my debt. It would be nice to pay off a credit card in full, and maybe work on a chunk of another one. I realize that it is highly unrealistic to be able to pay it off in full, so I just really want to work on a sizable chunk of it.
#3. Career (or 2nd job). I want to be able to find something in the photography or graphic design field. If that is unsuccessful, I need to be able to get a second job, or at least a better paying one than Beck is. I’ve always kinda wanted to become a bartender or casino dealer. In either case, a better job is needed.


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Now, on to the large survey....
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Happy New Years everybody!


Later Days!
~KPH~

Look who it is :-)

It is almost time to post my 2009 Year in Review post.
I figure that will be a good time to get back into LiveJournal.

Look for it soon.




Later Days!
~KPH~

My favorite commercial of the SB09.
I almost lost it. haha!




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~KPH~

Go shorty! It's your birthday!

Birthday
I'm 23.
Weeeeeeeee.




Major update later.
Promise!




Love you all!




Later days!
~KPH~

2008 Year in Review

I want to wish everyone a Happy New Year for the coming few days. Celebrate hard, but celebrate safe. As usual...here is my year in review post that I do every year around this point in time. I hope you enjoy.

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Top Survey = taken from masako back in 2007
Bottom = my usual, longer, year in review survey, taken from juiceboy back in 2006.

Previous Years:
2006
2007

5 biggest flaws:
- I find me keeping feelings to myself, rather than talking with people I am comfortable with. I have too much pride in myself to talk with people about my problems.
- I spend money too easily. I buy things I want, but not necessarily can afford ( or even need) it. When I have money, I also find myself spending it more on friends rather than myself, or even saving it.
- I'm a procrastinator.
- I don’t realize important things, until it’s often too late. For example, I graduate in May, and I don’t have anything lined up concerning a career move, or the idea about going to grad school. I need to think about things earlier, even if that means months to years earlier.
- I have problems letting go to things that are important to me. Someone told me that this year, when ran again for office in Phi Sigma Kappa in my last semester here at SIU, rather than take 1 semester off from a leadership position.

5 best qualities:
- I know what I’m passionate about, and what I want to do.
- I’m one of the most loyal friends a person could have.
- Besides my stubbornness, I’m very logical in my choices.
- I like to think I’m versatile in what I do.
- I have a lot of big dreams

Happiest moment:
Going alumni status in the fraternity, and being able to give my advise to all the guys….while everyone in the room was balling their eyes out.

Worst moment:
Having my gambling debt from last year (when I was 21) catch up to me, and getting collection agency calls to my cell, my brother’s house, and my parent’s house.

Biggest achievements:
- Passing CP322 this semester, and letting me get one step closer to graduating in May.
- Putting on my thesis photography show in May, in a real gallery!

Biggest Failure:
- Being forced to graduate in May of 2009, rather than May 2008 or December 2008. It was a goal for me when I started SIU to do it in 4 years, but now I’m going to do it in 5.

Last Year's Resolution(s): (copied & pasted from the entry)
#1 – Graduate college in December
#2 – Work on getting a summer internship in photography
#3 – Get my V back / lose weight / drop pant sizes / slim down
#4 – Plan a successful Spring Break trip with friends
#5 – Pay off my credit card debt

Accomplished or Not?:
#1 – No. I messed up in one class, and it held be back another semester. I’m going to graduate in May instead.
#2 – No. While I didn’t find a photography internship, I at least found a steady job with Beck. Granted it’s not my field, but at least I’m secure in it incase I needed something right after college.
#3 – Maybe, but not exactly. I don’t think I got fatter, I don’t think I got thinner. Lately, people have been complementing me on my looking thinner, so it might be a ‘maybe’. However, I’m wearing the same size pants…even though I’m now able to slip them on and off without even unbuttoning them. I’m trying to judge my weight and how I look by my pants size, rather then lbs. on the scale.
#4 – No. It’s not a bad thing I guess, since I did get a new job then. I think I had to work through it, but I didn’t mind, because I always need the money.
#5 – No. While my balance isn’t at zero, I did take some steps to help it though. My credit limit was lowered, and I made out a calendar and budget to pay it off over time. Even though the answer is ‘no’ on here, steps are being taken to help. I did realize however, that it was unrealistic to think that I could pay it off in a single year, and still be able to live comfortably. It will take time, and I think realizing that is a positive.

Wow. All “no’s”? When I was filling this section out, I realized that maybe I need to make my resolutions simpler? Less specific? Maybe a little more open ended? I think I need to make resolutions that don’t have a simple yes-or-no ending, because it kinda sucks writing ‘no’ all those times. Let’s see how my new ones go…

2009 New Year's Resolutions:
I think I’m going to limit them to one or two words per resolution this year, and then explain them in detail. By doing this, it leaves it a bit more open ended, and able to be accomplished.

#1. Weight. I want to lose weight this year, mainly for my health and self-esteem. Rather than set a specific goal, I will be happy as long as I’m able to drop a reasonable amount of pounds, and hopefully a few pants sizes.
#2. Debt. I want to take a chunk out of my debt. It would be nice to pay off a credit card in full, and maybe work on a chunk of another one. I realize that it is highly unrealistic to be able to pay it off in full, so I just really want to work on a sizable chunk of it.
#3. Plans. This is completely open right now. I have nothing planned after (hopefully) graduating in May. I’ve toyed with the idea about going to grad school…I’ve been thinking about staying in Carbondale just because the standard of living is so low as compared to Chicago…hell, Justina and I have even talked about moving to Boston just for shits and giggles. The point is that I have nothing planned, and I should get working on that. My only real goal is I don’t really want to go back to living at my parent’s house after I graduate college. I wouldn’t mind getting an apartment in the same town if needed, but I just want to continue being on my own.

My resolutions are a work in progress, and these are only the ones I could think of right now. Things can always be added to this list even when the year has already started.

Now, on to the large survey....
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Happy New Years everybody!

Later days!
~KPH~

X-Men Origins: Wolverine Trailer [True HD]


That is all I have to say.
I think I just creamed myself for Gambit.




Later Days!
~KPH~

ok ok....I admit it.

Am I a sucker for admitting that the movie Elf give me a "feel good tear" whenever I see it? haha. It was on TV, and I almost let one escape my eyes around my roommates. hahaha!




Later Days!
~KPH~
So the best part of being sick + poor is that I think I'm losing weight.

I was at work or class or something the other day, and I really had to go to the bathroom. When I came home, I could barely wait any longer. I ran into the our bathroom, and threw(?) down my pants and did my business.

When I finished, I realized that I didn't even unbutton my jeans. I literally just slid them past my fat ass. hahaha. How awesome is that? I even pulled them up the same way. Now, everytime I'm going to the washroom I do that, and it makes me smirk a little. lol.




Later Days!
~KPH~

Menu for today.....

You know you are a poor college student when:
- You have ramen noodles for breakfast
- A spoon of chunky peanut butter for lunch
- Toast with cream cheese and a Gatorade for dinner




Somebody send me some money.
Or at least some groceries?




Later days!
~KPH~

Stepping up to the plate......

So I promised a real post soon, and I think it's about time that I fulfill that to all of you.

I'm actually sitting here in the SIU Library, just finishing up my homework, when I realized that I told you that I would bring you into the light soon. So, here is me the past couple of weeks:

School: One more semester for me after this one. With finals week coming up, I'm just praying that I pass all my classes this semester, so that I'm not pushed back again. The thing that pisses me off much, is that it was a goal of mine to do school in 4 years, no more. If all goes as planned....I'm going to complete it in 5 years this May. Of course, this was all of my own fault. I really fucked up my sophomore year here by getting a D twice in my major. Now...a D in my major courses is not considered passing, so I had to retake it. The pathetic thing is...I got the D twice in the same course. That's right, I had to repeat a course a total of three times, with three different professors. To add on top of the pathetic-ness, it wasn't even really a hard course, just a basic photography course. Because of that awesome move, it pushed me from 4 to 5 years. Oh well though...you live and you learn. I'm still proud to be graduating (knocks on wood) in May. As for what I'm going to do after school, I still don't know yet. I'm debating about going to grad school somewhere, but like usual, I'm procrastinating on looking at locations and prices and all that jazz. I really need a kick in the ass sometimes. Ideas about California or NY/Boston area have come up...but then again, so has grad school here at SIU. The only reason that I would stay here at SIU any longer, would be because my rent is DIRT CHEAP at $170/mo. Plus, I also at least have a sort of job here as a bus driver. Hey....it's an income.

Phi Sigma Kappa: I went alumni status a few weeks back. For those that don't know, it's like a "promotion" in the ranks of the fraternity. To be a member of the fraternity, you need to be a full time student of course, and since next semester I'll only be part time (I only need 2 classes to graduate), I was allowed to go to the higher status. This was a huge thing for me, as most people know how important those boys mean to me. You should have seen everyone at the ritual....there wasn't a dry eye in the room. Sure, I'll still be here for another semester, but now I'm only acting like an adviser to the chapter. I've been thinking about getting a job at the Phi Sigma Kappa Headquarters in Indianapolis. I think I could easily get one, with the connections that I have. It's not in the photography field, but it's better than anything I have planned now after graduating (which is clearly nothing). I still love these boys with all my heart, and don't know where I would be without them.

Love: Single. As always. Crushing on the straight boys, which doesn't help.

Work: Still driving the yellow school buses, and the city buses. I guess a good thing is that I'm slowly climbing up the seniority list, so I can get more choices of routes and hours that I want to work. God knows that I don't want to continue doing this after I graduate SIU, but like I said before...it's an income. I know that if I move away to go to grad school somewhere....or even go back home...that I'll have to find a job somewhere in this economy. I have that security here. There is no way in hell I'm leaving here to go work at a Wal-Mart or McDs. I sometimes dream that magazines are throwing themselves at my feet asking me to work for them. It's really just that though, a dream. I have no connections in that world, but yet I'm basing my whole education off of it. Sometimes I think I chose something that I might be passionate about...but has to realistic expectations sometimes. Again, much of this is coming from myself, and how lazy / unmotivated I sometimes am. Sometimes I feel like I'm going to get that degree...and then it's going to be a huge "now what?" moment. Great.

Family: My dad and I haven't fought in a while, so that's good. Ever since we got in that huge spat at the Thanksgiving last year where I got kicked out, things haven't gotten that bad since. We actually get along, and talk on the phone almost weekly. When I visited him over Thanksgiving this year, we actually went to the movies together. I don't think it's that awkward when we see each other anymore...but I actually think that he respects me a little more than he used to. When I got kicked out, I think he expected me to come asking him for forgiveness...but when I started to be able to make it out on my own, I think he was impressed for the most part. He's even said before that he thought I was likely the strongest and wisest of my siblings. Granted, we aren't best of friends...but I guess you can say that we tolerate each other, and we really aren't angry anymore. Still, don't expect me to be moving back home anytime soon. haha.

Sanity: I don't know. haha. I'm getting stressed because my college career is coming to an end in a semester. It's stressful...but it's also a relief. How does that work out? It's like I'm comfortably stressing out. haha.


I started thinking about my New Years Resolutions.
It's too early to talk about that now.
Let's just get through December ;-)





Later days!
~KPH~